ME, MYSELF & I: As COVID Deaths Mounted, Fauci’s Bizarre Diary Tracked His Own Growing Fame
Newly released personal diary entries from Dr. Anthony Fauci paint a striking portrait of the government’s top COVID-19 adviser during the pandemic, revealing that as the global death toll climbed, he became increasingly preoccupied with his soaring public profile and celebrity status.
The journals, made public by Senate Homeland Security Committee Chairman Rand Paul (R-Ky.), trace Fauci’s daily activities throughout the COVID-19 pandemic, including conversations with President Donald Trump, governors, foreign leaders, media engagements, and his own reflections on unfolding events.
Paul, who frequently sparred with Fauci over the federal pandemic response and the origins of COVID-19, released the diaries as part of the committee’s continuing investigation. Their publication comes just days before Fauci is expected to testify before the Senate Homeland Security and Governmental Affairs Committee under a subpoena issued by Paul.
One of the most striking patterns throughout the journals is Fauci’s repeated focus on the dramatic rise in his personal fame during the height of the pandemic, which officially claimed more than seven million lives worldwide, including approximately 1.2 million Americans.
On April 7, 2020, after summarizing the latest developments in the pandemic, Fauci noted: “Press still hot and heavy about me. Multiple stories per day directly or indirectly involving me.”
Weeks later, on May 21, after recording pandemic statistics showing nearly 98,000 deaths worldwide and more than 27,000 in the United States, along with details from that day’s White House Coronavirus Task Force meetings, Fauci reflected on the extraordinary attention he was receiving. He wrote that his “national and international fame is explosive and really unimaginable” and that it was “not hyperbole” to say he was “the most famous and talked about person in the country.”
Fauci also observed that Trump “seems to be enamored of me even though I am taking the spotlight away from him,” adding that the two had developed “a very unique and interesting relationship.” He further remarked that Secret Service personnel had become so accustomed to seeing him that they frequently allowed him into the White House without asking for identification.
As his prominence continued to grow, Fauci’s journal increasingly chronicled opportunities that extended well beyond medicine. About a month later, after noting that the United States had recorded what he described as a record 40,000 new COVID-19 cases in a single day, he wrote that he had received an invitation to appear on “Dancing with the Stars.”
The diaries also reveal Fauci’s mounting dissatisfaction with the Trump administration’s handling of the crisis. In an entry dated July 2, 2020, after expressing concern that the nation was heading toward an “exponential” increase in infections ahead of the Independence Day weekend, he wrote, “POTUS and his people have essentially dropped out and do not even recognize that an outbreak is ongoing.”
Fauci also expressed frustration that the White House was rejecting requests for him to appear on major television programs. Throughout multiple entries, he criticized communications officials for limiting his media appearances, questioned the administration’s messaging strategy, and lamented that news coverage increasingly portrayed him as being in conflict with President Trump.
The journals also show Fauci repeatedly responding to what he described as the “countless” media profiles written about him. He said White House officials believed those stories made it appear that he had become “a star that outshines” the president.
At the same time, Fauci maintained that several of the published profiles had been written without speaking to him directly and insisted he had “no desire to conflict with, embarrass or show up the POTUS.” He ultimately wrote that he decided to stop participating in profile interviews altogether.
Taken as a whole, the diaries provide an unusually candid glimpse into Fauci’s private thoughts during one of the most significant public health emergencies in modern American history, documenting not only high-level discussions within the government but also his evolving relationship with the Trump White House, his concerns over the pandemic, and the extraordinary public attention that accompanied his role.
