Roei Shalev, a survivor of the Nova music festival massacre, ended his life on Friday, leaving behind a farewell message on social media that has shaken the nation.
Shalev was among the attendees of the Nova festival on October 7, 2023, when Hamas terrorists invaded border communities near Gaza, killing roughly 1,200 people. He was shot in the back but lived through the attack. His partner, Mapal Adam, and his close friend, Hili Solomon, were both murdered that day.
The tragedy deepened just a week later when Shalev’s mother, Raffaela, also took her own life, unable to bear the loss.
On Friday, Shalev was discovered in a burning vehicle near a highway exit outside Netanya. Police said they have launched an investigation into the circumstances, though Shalev’s Instagram farewell post made clear his intent.
The haunting message, expressing anguish and emotional collapse since the massacre, reflected what friends had long feared—that he never recovered from the deaths of his partner and friends. “I’m truly sorry. I can’t bear this pain any longer. I’m burning inside, and I can’t contain it anymore. Never in my life have I felt such pain and suffering – deep, burning, eating me from within,” Shalev wrote.
“I truly can’t go on. Dad, Lior, and Ido – I love you more than anything in the world. I’m so sorry. My friends in Israel and around the world – I love you. Keshet, I love you. Please don’t be angry with me. No one will ever understand me, because you can’t. I
Please remember the good in me. Anyone who knew me knows that all I ever wanted was good. I’m sorry.”
The Nova Tribe Community Association, representing survivors of the festival, issued a somber statement mourning his death. “Unfortunately, many of the PTSD victims of October 7 are still experiencing terrible and complex moments since that day. We ask everyone to be constantly vigilant and maximally sensitive to the mental state of the victims of October 7 in general, and to the survivors and the bereaved families in particular.”
After Shalev’s post appeared online, friends and members of the Nova Tribe launched a frantic search when he stopped answering his phone. Security footage showed him at a gas station filling a container with fuel. Soon after, his car was discovered engulfed in flames, with his body inside. He was pronounced dead at the scene.
In a statement, Shalev’s family confirmed his passing and requested privacy. “We ask to refrain from contact,” they wrote, adding that “details of the funeral will be provided separately.”
Nova Tribe described Shalev as one of the central figures in their circle and called his loss “incomprehensible.” The group urged people to remember “his courageous support of the community, his leadership as captain of the Nova Tribe basketball team, and his devotion to helping friends in their most difficult times.”
Basketball trainer and YouTuber Barak Swarttz shared his grief online, recalling a powerful interview he recorded with Shalev last year in Los Angeles. During that conversation, Shalev had recounted his survival story in vivid detail—how he was shot twice, pretended to be dead as terrorists roamed the festival grounds, and watched loved ones die beside him.
In the same interview, Shalev described how he and his late partner, Mapal Adam, had often spoken about their dreams together—planning their wedding, naming their future children, and envisioning their lives ahead. “They send me signs,” he told Swarttz. “After the biggest nightmare of my life, I am here today. On a basketball court with a smile on my face,” he said, acknowledging that the memories and tears still haunted him.
Following confirmation of Shalev’s death, Swarttz added a pinned comment to the video: “Dear YouTube community – Roei took his life… October 10th. He couldn’t take the pain anymore. Please send your wishes to his family and loved ones. Gutted,” accompanied by emojis of angel wings, a candle, and a broken heart.
Shalev’s passing follows a tragic pattern among survivors. Other Nova attendees have also taken their own lives, including 22-year-old Shirel Golan, who died by suicide a year after the massacre, reportedly on her birthday.
In April 2024, Nova survivor Guy Ben Shimon told Knesset members that “almost 50 suicides among the Nova survivors” had occurred. The Health Ministry rejected that figure, stating it had no data or records supporting such a number and reported fewer than ten known suicides among survivors at that time. Officials have not released updated statistics, citing privacy concerns.
Despite his pain, Shalev had become an advocate for mental health awareness. Israeli nonprofit ELEM: Youth in Distress honored him with its “LifeSaver Award” for his efforts to help others cope with post-traumatic stress following October 7. Accepting the award last year, he said, “I’m determined to help rebuild our community, to offer hope and support to those whose lives have been shattered by similar tragedies. And so, I humbly ask for your assistance. Together, we can make a difference. Whether through donations or spreading awareness, every act of kindness matters. And amidst the pain and sorrow, I hold onto one truth: we will dance again. We’ll reclaim the joy that was stolen from us and build a brighter future for all.”
In a statement, SafeHeart, an organization providing trauma therapy for Nova survivors, mourned deeply. “Our hearts are broken alongside Roei’s family, friends, and the entire survivor community. This terrible tragedy is a painful reminder that for many survivors, the trauma of October 7 has not ended. It continues to live within them, day by day, moment by moment. The pain does not simply fade with time; in many cases, it grows stronger.
“Two years later, we as a society must recognize that survivors need long-term, professional, and accessible support. They need to be seen, heard, and understood, not only on anniversaries or during public events, but every single day. The path to healing is long, complex, and deeply personal. It requires compassion, treatment, and community.
“SafeHeart will continue to provide trauma-informed care to survivors of the Nova festival and all those affected by the events of October 7. Our mission remains unwavering: to ensure that no survivor ever feels alone in their struggle.
“We urge any survivor, family member, or loved one in distress to reach out to SafeHeart, to their therapists, or to other support networks. You are not alone, and you never will be. May Roei rest in peace, and may his memory be a blessing.”
Post-traumatic stress has now claimed the lives of at least 41 people in Israel, leaving families shattered. Many of those lost were soldiers who entered the massacre sites at Nova and nearby kibbutzim, where they witnessed unspeakable horrors committed by Hamas terrorists.
Mental health professionals continue to warn that the emotional toll of October 7 has reached the level of a national emergency, and that countless others remain at risk unless long-term psychological aid and intervention are expanded.
{Matzav.com Israel}